My Thoughts about Nocturne in E, opus 62, No.2

A girl was walking all alone in the midnight. The only source of light was the grey bright full moon that seemed to be dented all over its rough surface hung up high in the sky. The overgrown trees planted along the two sides of pathways of the road had extended branches that interlocked itself. The girl, walking back home, all miserable from her very own first wedding, was ditched by boyfriend. Feeling lonely and sad, she tried to recall what things that made her boyfriend rejected her. The night was peaceful.太冲动。 The girl started crying. The deserted street had newspapers and crushed up tissue balls rolling all over the place with the wind. She felt some guidance – major key. Not hopeless. Recall dancing in the ballroom. Nostalgia.

Started walking faster. 见不得人。Running away. Imagining people pointing and laughing at her.

See and thinks the trees come alive. Cartoon, evil trees. Branches haunting her. Going crazy. Just running. Trees chasing behind. Scared. Tearing out her gown. Thinks that more things will come alive. Look up to the moon for some hope. But the moon comes alive and gives her a mean grin with threatening eyes. Hopeless, and collapse and close her eyes and finds that everything is a hallucination.

Gains her conscience, walks home again.

Boyfriend at the door step with the door lights brightly lit. He smiled and reached out his palm to her.

Starts dancing in the house again.

Yesterday was my birthday.
Dam cool huh.
So here are my presents.
No, it’s not for you.
Rather, it’s for you to envy.
Enjoy.

First up on the list, here was what Darryn gave me. A black shirt from 77th-street and a hand phone fluffy thing that I do not know what is it. Thanks Darryn!


Second up on the list, here was what Woon Ngiap gave me. A gigantic Winnie The Pooh plush soft toy and a card stitched to its bottom, which I already taken out the card. So my first impression was – wow. Thanks Woony!


Third up on the list, here was what Dong ZhenSheng gave me. A half cracked seashell key chain, some battery operated mini dog and lastly a small box of Ferrero Rocher. OK, thanks Dong Lao!


Fourthly, Jun Wei gave me this mini dog handphone chain thingy and a Billabong pencil case, which I find it still too big for me. How thoughtful of him, cause he said my old one was ugly. Thanks Wilson!


Fifthly, Ill Shan gave me this penholder thingy, which looked quite girly. But the word on it was quite meaningful. Not letting you see what it looks like. Opps, that’s too bad. Thanks Kim Chi Boy for the present anyway!

Sixthly, Er Jiu’s family gave me this Billabong shirt. How nice. Thank you!


Seventhly, Xiao Jiu’s family gave me this branded high-class Levis shirt. So in total, I had 3 new shirts. (Uncle Chris actually bought me a shirt too, but it was Jose’s size, so I gave it to him. Boo Hoo). Thanks Hui Ling and Pei Xuan!


Lastly, here’s a present from Kenneth, Xiao Gu’s family, an “exclusive pen collection set” and another book. Thank you!


So that’s about it. Left a few more presents that I do not feel like describing, but a very big thank you to those who bought presents and gave Ang Pows!

Thanks my family for the catering and other food.
Thanks whoever who came for the Christmas party.
Thanks Darryn, Woony, DZS, Jun Wei, Kim Chi Boy for coming.

OK LAH, THANK YOU HERE THANK YOU THERE VERY PEK CHEK LEH, SO THANK YOU EVERYBODY( 10 X )!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Hey guys it’s me again! Good old Joel! My posts are all written and type with passion and commitment. So this would be quite a long post again. So what’s about this post? Ordinary. Not.

So first up, who is coming to my Christmas gathering on the 24th next week at my house? (Wow, 22th is Darryn’s, 24th is DZS, anymore?) I know Jun Wei and Darryn going already, so how about Woon Ngiap and DZS? Hope they could come too. So, on the 24th, there will be quite a number of people, from both sides of my parents. So to those who would be coming, bring along your Christmas presents and give it to your true friends. Come on la, if you come empty handled, you would sure feel very pai sei one. So the best would still be presents. The more the merrier, of course. And. 2 presents for me! Hurray! I know sure have Poor people like Darryn and Woon Ngiap always say no money, then in the end here comes fifty dollars. So please come, see you there!!

Next, today is another fully occupied day, went esplanade with 2 servants to accompany me to do some research Chee Hang ordered me to do. Oh, the servants are Mr. Dino Ng and Mr. Clown Ngiap. I finally found the Grove encyclopaedia, so I though, 18 pages of gold information to copy, and that’s a lot hor. Guess what, I out of despair and desperation, I bought a cash card and used up about $2++ of photocopying. Then I went to look out for Disney piano scores.

So, movie time at Marina Square, Alvin and the chipmunks. Quite a entertaining movie, but it’s too short, and so 7 bucks is just gone just like that, puff!! -.-“
Met E Heng while shopping.

Suddenly nothing to say, okay, that the end!

Every time I spent some time in my room alone all by myself, I would reflect, and thing about the meaningful things that I had done on that certain day, and the amount of time wasted on other not necessary stuff like gaming. It had came clearly to my attention that controlling yourself is harder than controlling others, I have absolutely poor control of myself. I regretted each time, after feeding myself to gaming, that it was just a waste of time. To thing about it that it is true, gaming is just the moment of happiness you get and after that, that’s it, the feeling is gone. I told myself to have just that little bit of self-control, but each time I just fall back to my own senses and started gaming. Now there is just 3 things in my mind, which that would be study, piano, and gaming. Am I just too stressed out or I am not aware of me already being stressed up. First, lets talk about studies, prelim 1 is coming closer each day, and so is the threatening and powerful O’level. I am still in my own dreamland, thinking that time is still on my side, and giving myself false believes that the days are still long. But not any longer. Each day of my life passed quicker and quicker, like a flick of the fingertips, yet another day had just passed. Or its like a gust of strong wind blew passed, and its tomorrow. My mind is in a state of confusion; there are too many subjects to study for, to perfect each and every one of them, to cover up all the topics that had been done, and to patch up the holes left behind. All the subjects, from English all the way to bio, to me they are all undone, and those memorising subjects, like elect history, social studies, Chemistry, Biology, all theses are giving me pain. How do you expect a normal size brain to remember all of these at once? My brain would just give up and burst. Now that I had aid in my studies by my side, I am still half confident. Aid as in the new tutor I get, my father had willingly requested for my cousin to guide me, and today’s the first lesson together. He is 21 and looks much more matured than me. So the lesson went quite smoothly I can say. Moving on, my piano, this is my headache number 2, I am taking my diploma next year around June to September, currently I am behind schedule as planed by my teacher, I should finished learning all 4 pieces of songs by the end of this month, however, true enough, I had finished learning all of them, but is it even up to my standard? Can I do better than that? Now my playing does not even sound as if I am a grade 8 student. How ashamed that can be? My pieces are all not fluent, especially the romantic Chopin piece, Nocturne in E, slips everywhere, flows are not smooth enough, sounds like elephant stomping, so chunky, full of bad comments. Yes, I know all these, but did I do anything to correct it? Yes, just keep practicing. Practising should not be fun, it meant to be a torture, but you would reap the sole and get the fruits of your labour once you work hard. Yes, I know all theses, and to confess, I am pure lazy. To compare, piano and studies with gaming, which is better? Which is more appealing? Which would ruin your? It’s easy to say, but it’s hard to make the right choice. Get in control with my brain, let my thinking and my actions work together, and bring out the better me. The angel goes to sleep and the devil within me plays. That’s not the way it should be, is it? I can’t just slack off. Look at Woon Ngiap, I think he is trying, but am I even trying? Have I already given up? No way man, no way.

-Wake up! I am late for my work!-
Today I challenged my forsight. It was another boring old hack Cip day for me. I thought Woon Ngiap would wear the new shirt that he bought yesterday( he was so skinny!), but quite expected, he did not turn up, and yet another one of his new excuses, mother said cannot, too far away, must as well go to Queen’s town library. Thats too bad for him. Actually I quite agree with his mum, cause going to AMK library is so far away. As for Darryn, he was still in bed when I called him. Speechless.

-You know how to do adult fiction?-
Today I challenged determination. As usual for the past 3 days, I woke up on the account of my mothers repetitive alarm call. While working, I felt a little giddiness, looking at all the numbers and decimal place makes me puke. Thus I decided to let myself off today and just do half a day’s work. Maybe it was because of my hunger (My breakfast was just a piece of bread! with milo which was left on the table untouched for quite some time. My Ah Di made the breakfast, thanks!) . Anyway I still earned myself 3 hours of CIP, LoL.

-Rain, rain, go away, come again another day!-
Today I challenged the rain, walking home against the strong winds, and the calm rainstorm. I felt the pattering of heavy raindrops, sinking into my blue shirt that was already drenched. I tried to protect my hand phone by covering it under my warm hands tucked snugly in my pocket. At last! I was home, all alone, and I closed the main door of my house.

- Thats all for Today, I challenged myself, but I failed once agian -





Yesterday was Wati’s last day with us, thus we treated her a very special dinner at Suntec city. We went to some restaurant that was specialise in Indonesian food, and what a surprise, the food tasted quite delicious. The total bill was hundred over dollars. Burn a hole in the pocket. Here is the picture.





Today was the so-called happiest day for Wati, as by 4 o’ clock, she would be in her comfort of her bedroom. Home sweet home for her. Wati is going back Indonesia today. She will be back Singapore in 3 weeks time. Guess I have to be more helpful in housework chorus like sweeping the floor. WAKE UP JOEL!

At last, after much of a waiting, after much of anticipation, after much of a glimmer of hope, my blog has finally revived! (So called)
All the ranting about updating my blog, I’ll diligently post one now.

Today in CIP day, the non-official one, cause it was the first time for me to participate in the self-volunteer CIP. Expected, as you had may already read other blogs, it was the CIP at AMK library as a volunteer helping out to shelve books. At first, it may seem all so exciting, to sort out the books according to the numbers and alphabets, to arrange them to the shelves neatly in order, to place the books in increasing number. However, after some time, it gets so routine, doing the same thing over and over again. Expected, we slack quite a little. It’s the 4 same boring people that I went with, except there is no Dong ZhenSheng as he is still on holiday, and today is the day that he comes back from the trip to Malaysia. Anyway, I would like to say thanks to Woon Ngiap and more thanks to Darryn for asking me to join them, as they were the ones who called me and ask if I were free. I would have wasted another beautiful day slacking at home like a potato couch. And yeah, I certainly had gain experience and deeper knowledge of interacting with the staff members over there. The Chinese staff which I do not know her name, was exceptionally naggy.

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